I needed to do this. I had to make a turn. I've been going down this paved road towards who-knows-where for some time now and needed a change of scenery, change of direction, change of perspective. About a year ago, I remember talking to a friend about our want and need to get out of this place. To move away, anywhere but here. We agreed on "Phoenix"...it was such a distant thought then...one of those things we plan to do, forget we ever planned it, and go on with our lives.
“Oscar Wilde said: ‘Each man kills the thing he loves.’ And it’s true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve to get what we want either. We forget about the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far. I have known a lot of people who, when their personal calling was within their grasp, went on to commit a series of stupid mistakes and never reached their goal—when it was only a step away."
Source: Paulo Coelho, (2002). The Alchemist.
I got in. As of January 2009, I will be starting my dietetic internship at Central Michigan University. I will be leaving everything that I know, moving to my "Phoenix", and will know absolutely no one. A new chapter, if you will, chasing my dreams. I didn't want to kill what I love. I didn't want to let it go. I refused to forget about it. And I fought for it until I got it.
The question is, why aren't I as ecstatic about it as I thought I'd be? Just the idea, of wanting something so bad, and then getting it? That scares me. Because it proves that anything really is possible.
And so, ladies and gentlemen, I would like to present to you, my new home as of January 2009:
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YAY! Congrats :)
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